Tuesday, January 1, 2013

The Many Faces of Me! From then to 2013



35 years old
Have I changed? Yes, of course, I have gotten older and hopefully wiser. What have I changed, my hair? A bit, it is still long and dark (thanks to the miracle of chemicals my secret is safe.) My weight? Yes, it has gone up, down, up and now going down to stay at an ideal weight for me. My eye color for some reason has gone from brown to hazel. A ring of green surrounding a circle of brown. 
Other than physical features, what has really changed about me? Between the age of 35 and now I have received two BA degrees; Philosophy and Art (plus the many, many hours towards a computer science/technician degree), and now I am working on getting my graduate degree in elementary education (MAT K-6) at the same college I earned my BAs. The question is, do I feel smarter? Yes, compared to what I was and now there is a big difference. I read more and deeper. I write a lot more and deeper than before. When there is someone whom I can have deep conversations with I take advantage of that opportunity. There is a down side to being an educated individual. I have only been able to find a few good friends who can indulge in a great conversation with me without getting angry. Most of the time I am carrying on that conversation in my head. A bit one sided when the conversation is going on within. There are many times when I feel stupid and insecure. I do or say something that is taken the wrong way, and then I have a hard time getting out of the situation. I am only human and subject to many flaws (I apologize if I have ever offended you.) 
2009
This brings me to my spiritual growth. How has my relationship with God changed? A lot! I am now a very proud member of the Baha'i Faith, and feel closer to God than I have ever felt in the past. Before I was 26 there was no religion in my life, but I believed in God and His son. Then I became a Mormon (LDS) and was content with it, but did not ever feel connected as a member. I believe that God is everywhere and not just in a building. He is in every thing and everyone. When I am in nature; a park, forest, desert, etc., is where I feel closest to God. I see His beauty all around me. I cannot and do not believe that He can only hear me when I am in a church. He hears me when I call His name, and I listen with an open heart and soul for His reply.
December 30, 2012
What else has changed about me? Well, I am back to looking for the true me. She has been lost for awhile being only defined as what she did and not who she is.
Do not get me wrong. I love being a mom and nana. It is the highest calling, and I am proud of the people I have brought into this world. They are all unique and beautiful young people. I would never change this part of my life. Do things better? Yes, there are times that I wish I could have a "do over" and do things better the second time. I did/do the best that I knew/know how to do. I can only try to do better as I move forward. This is all any of us can do. Start today to do and be the best that we can. Go forward and try not to get stuck in our past. It is not good for us. It can ruin our health, and that makes our lives miserable. I know this from my own experience. The happier I am, the healthier I feel. Looking back on the bad only makes me upset, and that does not help my health. My eyes are forward. 
What will be in my future? Not sure, but I am moving forward one step at a time. I pray that y'all will be able to do the same. Here is to a Happy New Year and many more to come!

Tuesday, July 31, 2012

I Need a Philosophy Fix!

I started graduate school the first of May. Actually, my first class was on my birthday. The degree that I am working towards is an MAT K-6 w/SPED so that I can be a licensed teacher.  The classes so far have been exciting and I love my cohorts, they are a fantastic bunch of gifted people. I look forward to starting the next semester with them.
Back to my point of the title of this post~ "I need a philosophy fix!" One day back in June while I was getting a drink and a bite to eat before class, I saw my favorite philosophy professor. Yes, I am getting my masters at the same college that I received my undergraduate degrees from. Anyway, I went up to my favorite professor and said hi. After not seeing him for six years he still remembered me. We talked a bit and it felt good to be having a conversation with him again. I had missed those talks. 
What I would love to do is take a class from him while I am taking the graduate classes. The problem is, as always, I do not have the money to do so. I really do need a philosophy fix though and so, I will have to figure out a way to make it happen. 
It would be fun to be a philosophy teacher in a high school or jr. high, but the state of Utah does not offer such classes to students. Some of the students would really get into being philosophical.
What to do, what to do!? When I figure it out, I will let you know. For now I must go and be philosophical.

Monday, February 20, 2012

Being Free; A Study of the Constitution of the USA

To be free is to be educated and to be educated is to do the work that one needs to do to maintain that freedom. Our schooling should not stop when we finish high school or college. No, learning is a lifetime adventure, an exciting and to me a very pleasurable journey.
I was telling my son the other day that it would be nice if we could go around to all the colleges, universities and libraries and take classes that are interesting (and free or inexpensive). He of course agreed with me on this idea. The problem is the money, driving and so on. There is a bit of a solution though and that is the internet, the world wide web of opportunity.
In my search for educational opportunities I have found many websites that offer free access to great classes from some of the best schools in the world. From Yale to Stanford, iTunesU, YouTube and so on, the classes are out there for those who want to learn more.
Today I started a free 10 week course; the Constitution 101  offered by Hillsdale College. It is a beginning class, but so far very interesting. Have you read the Constitution or any of the other important documents of our country lately or at all? I have read some and bits and pieces of others, but not all the way through the Constitution and I should have. I will be reading it and many others over the next 10 weeks and writing about my thoughts.
Check out the site and remember to keep learning and having fun.